I have this friend back east that I have known since the
90’s. One of the reasons we remain friends, probably, is that we think in
similar ways, have a similar sense of humor and enjoy each other’s company.
Skinner, as I call her, and I became friends through phone
calls and emails at work. It wasn’t until a few years later that she met me in
person. (I had already met her, but she had forgotten the meeting. I suppose
that indicates the first impression I had on her, or lack thereof, sigh.)
Anyway, the friendship worked, partly (I think) because we
kept it as a friendship. (though if I had been single at the time…I probably
would have made a nuisance of myself.)
There were a few curious things over the years that, if I
take them out of context, squint and tilt my head just the right way; might
indicate some other ideas she may have had.
The first thing was sometime in the mid nineties, before the
internet. I had mentioned reading certain stories on a bbs. She asked, if she
wrote such a story, would I post it for her?
Now I have been writing stories for quite a while, regular
fiction, and had shared some with her. So I figured that it would be regular
fiction.
So she sends me a little three page sex story and I posted
it. (It is still archived at several internet sites and if you knew my original
email address at my last company, you could find the story.)
The story had what I thought as a good sex scene between the
two characters. Not the quiet, slow lovemaking; but a rough, pull her dress
off, throw her on the bed, mount her from behind and fuck her hard, fast and
deep. (With a nice touch of her wanting/having her nipples pinched hard at just
the right moment.)
I have read the story
several times and based on how we act when we are together, I am sure it was
not meant to be about us.
And there is something else. That is that both of us respect
marriage. If she had other ideas about me, she would keep them to herself. If I
had other ideas about her, I would keep them to myself. Some things are just
not done.
Some years after that, she told me she had written a similar
story for her boyfriend and his reaction was pretty lukewarm.
The second thing was at one time, she sent me a book to
read. It was called ‘Mercy’. It was a psychological murder mystery about a man
who liked to dress up in women’s clothing, a series of murders; and a woman who
like to dress up as a man. The ‘Mercy’ title comes from the safe word that was
used by these two people, because they were also both into BDSM
I did like the book and told her so; but it always struck me
as strange that she would send it out to me. Especially since I read mostly
science fiction and fantasy.
So I suppose I could take these two items together and weave
it into a supposed fantasy that she has about me, or a fantasy she had and I
would be suitable. But that idea is so farfetched, based on what I know about
her, that it is hardly worth considering.